The Fallen Angel

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This is the one place I can be myself. A look inside my broken mind. I'm not really depressed or anything, just a little broken and lost.

You took my hands in yours and asked me what would I do if you left. 

I told you that I wouldn’t be able to live without you.

You smiled and looked at me straight in the eye and told me that you would never leave.

That was the last time I saw your face.

I know I shouldn’t say things like this but I REALLY HATE my mom at the moment. She criticizes me every day when she gets home about how she shouldn’t have given birth to me and that I’m a burden to society as a whole. And if she’s not criticizing me, she’s complaining about the people around her and how they don’t treat her with respect. And whatever comforting words I try to say to her (because she has to work because of me after all) turn into daggers that face me, and I end up being criticized. This past week has been like hell. I found out I wasted two years on a guy that never loved me and was lying to me and himself this whole time. My mom has been worse than ever and has been telling me that she with I wasn’t here and she’s tired of being with me and how nobody wants me around. I don’t even know what I’m trying to do with my life anymore and I seriously feel like a worthless piece of shit. Huh…….I’m so so so sorry.

My parents are in the next room talking about me. How I’m a failure. How I’m a disappointment. They think I’m taking a bath but I’m not. I’m actually in my room trying to calm my breathing down and to not pick up a blade. I’m tired of feeling like a failure, that I’m not good enough for anyone. I’m so sorry I exist.


Even my parents don’t care about me .I really don’t know why I should be alive nobody needs me or want me .I’m worthless , lost and tired of everything

Exactly how I feel